Die alive

I don't want to set goals. I want to keep on going past any such waypoints. But I think I have found one goal, one point I can't go beyond. I want to die alive.

I don't just want to drift through days without noticing them passing by. I want to have experiences, memories. I want to accomplish something, leave my mark. Or at least try and do my best.

Maybe I'm approaching my midlife crisis or something, or maybe I have reached my humane singularity but I'm not the person I used to be. I feel young. Maybe because I skipped so many days? Maybe something happened but I just wasn't paying attention?

Every experience changes us, leaves it's mark on us and makes us different. It doesn't have to be big, even small things accumulate.

I want to have new memories every morning.
I want to wake up as a new me.

By Tarja's words:
I live my days
every moment and it's memory,
not only to survive: to die alive.