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Welcome to the Yodeller: my ongoing project to try and write something every day. You can read more about the background from here. If you are a new reader you might want to start from the beginning.

I don't really want to write today

It's been a tough day. Had to say goodbye to one of our cats. The one I wrote about a couple of days ago. The mood has been quite down here throughout the day.

The day has gone through, somehow. Haven't had strength or interest to do much of anything. Even after coming to the conclusion that it was the best, a choice of reason, its still hard to let go. Hard to realize he's really gone. Even that we had a couple of days to prepare for the inevitable.

So now I'm just trying to fill this void. With some useless words. Just to get it done. And maybe have something else to think about for a while. But even trying to come up with whatever seems too much for now. Normally it wouldn't be a problem for me to reach the minimum count of words.

Luckily I'm almost there already. Only a few more sentences and it's over. Done for another day. I think it has never been this hard. But I won't give up, I can do it. Just like every other day. Let my experience help me push it till the end. Just four more words.

To be able to teach

To be able to work with things requires certain level of knowledge. You need to understand the things well enough that you yourself know how they work. You have probably started from the basics and worked up from there deepening your knowledge and forming your own understanding.

You might know how things work and how to use them but transferring that knowledge to others is another things. For that, you need to really understand them. You need to know where you come from and how you got there.

In essence, you need to be at least one level higher in your understanding than what you are teaching. I don't think it's possible to transfer your exact level of knowledge. You can just help others get started and guide them through the path you have taken. For the final level, you can only give them the tools and direction they must follow to reach your level.

So to give any practical teaching you need to push yourself even further. And that is a great motivation to learn. If you want to know something really well, try teaching it to others. You might take some things as granted, but when you have to explain those concepts to others you might notice you don't really understand them.

Weather to suit the mood

It was such a beautiful morning yesterday. The sun was shining and the air was fresh. Such a good start for a great day.

By the noon there was already some clouds gathering. I was sitting in a meeting when my phone rang. I don't usually answer in these situations but for a reason or another, I decided to take this one. I excused myself and stepped out. It was my wife, sobbing.

Last week we had to take one of our cats to the vet. His condition had been declining for a while so we thought it's better to find out what's wrong. During the inspection, nothing of worry was revealed. The express blood test was fine and, while he had lost weight and wasn't that energetic anymore, everything seemed fine. The vet promised to call us next week when the more detailed lab results would be ready.

I looked upon a darkening sky as my wife told me the results. There were a couple of weeks max left for him. And even that only with heavy treatments. We'd be faced with a tough choice.

Even though I left early, as I was walking back home it was already pouring rain. Thankfully covering my tears.


Last weekend we went to the info event about the school my son is applying. During the Q&A part, there was this one guy asking whether it's possible to learn the whole curriculum during the study period.

While I have to admit they had quite a broad curriculum and I'm sure if you really tried you could go through all of it, it would be just the top of an iceberg. In any industry the was the amount of knowledge makes it impossible to learn everything and especially in the field of it just trying to keep up to date with the things you know seems challenging. There is so much new information coming out that it's impossible to keep up to date even within a small niche.

So no, there is no way you could learn everything and be set for a career in this industry. But you can learn to learn. Every day is a new challenge, you need to learn something new, everything existing is already made so no point of recreating them anymore. Here, you truly build on the shoulders of the giants. Even if you are not doing groundbreaking innovations it's still creating something new using those innovations in new creative ways.

Do I really need to write again

I just wrote yesterday and now I'm here again. Need to come up with another 200 words from some topic that happens to come to my mind. And once again just before going to sleep.

It's another thing to leave the writing at the last moment, but actually coming up with something sensible to write would be better no matter when I write. It just seems like these late evening scribings are usually the one full of nonsense. Or just plain rambling how I can't come up with anything proper or am just overall tired of writing.

So why then, given a chance I do not write in the morning. There is nothing stopping me doing it then. I'm sure I can always find enough time for it. It would my days so much better. First of all I would have this task already completed from the start so I wouldn't have to worry about it throughout the day. I would also be able to go to sleep a bit earlier. As it seems I only start writing when I really want to go to bed already. And finally, I'm sure it would increase the quality of my texts, both the content and probably also the language.