Taking to people is scary. Writing in public is scary. Speaking in public is scary. But I still do all those things.
It's hard to get rid of that feeling. I feel vulnerable. It would be so much easier to just remain silent. I wouldn't need to worry about other peoples reactions and judgement. It's hard to open up and let go.
After years it doesn't feel as scary to write in public anymore. I have also tried to use every opportunity to speak to people. I have been speaking in multiple occasions in front of audience. And nothing bad has happened.
Still it feels awkward reading your own texts, hearing my own voice. I'm not the best writer, or speaker. But I still keep doing it. For talks it's somewhat safe. After it's done it's in the past. I haven't been comfortable with the recordings of those events. I have done it and that's all.
Maybe it's time to let go of one more fear. To let the world hear my voice. It's out there anyway, so why not?
So if you would like to hear my talk in Drupalcon Amsterdam last week about Green tech thinking, here you go: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlccwVlccwf4UX20f4UX20&list=PLpeDXSh4nHjSZET8xL2RyK3_2WeXxyWkY