Yodeller

I have signed up to a new kind of larp which is focused on fitness. In addtition to normal storytelling roleplaying players will face different physical challenges during the game.

Today we have a player meeting and kick off for the larp. We well gather together to team up and get to know each other. We will also have a personal trainer present who will help us set our goals, training schedules and diets.

The idea is to team up and do the training in groups. Having people with same goals and interests should be a pretty good motivator. And there will be a lot of peer support when one might have some struggles getting forward.

There were two base levels to choose from in the beginning. I picked the more challenging one. I'm not in a very good shape so it will be a lot of work to meet the requirements for that level. But I really wanted to challenge myself. It might be a rough three months ahead but I'm ready for it.

And the game will not be the ultimate goal for my fitness. I hope to continue moving and exercising actively also after that. Maybe not as rigorously, but enough to keep fit. It's just a really inspiring motivator to get started.

Now that I know what's coming up to in about three and half month I admit I feel a bit worried. The event I'm aiming will start with a 10k run. And that's just a warm up.

Currently I can probably run 2-3 kilometers in a slow pace. So there is going to be a lot of work to do. This won't be just a fun ride but a full boot camp with wathever it takes.

I have never trained with anything like this in mind. I have done some sports and light excersising, trained for some minor challenges. But I have never faced such a physical challenge. I wouldn't even have dreamt of doing anything like this.

This is truly one of those fo big or go home challenges. It will require a lot of effort. Both physical and mental. It's not just rigorous excersising, it needs a lot of motivation and determination. On that regard we got a really good tip: ”It's ok to quit as long as your start again, you only need to start one time more than you quit”.

I'm really excited about this. I'm also scared as hell. Have I lost my mind?

I want to do this.
I must do this.
I can do this!

Now it has really started. Got a gym membership yesterday and did my first workout there.

It went better than expected. Considering last time I was at the gym I almost fainted around half way through. Well, during those days I didn't move much at all, now I have at least done something actively for the past few months. And it did show.

I still can't say I like or enjoy it, but having somebody to go with who can also guide with the moves helps. Sure I could have gotten myself an instructor if needed, but that would have been a social situation with a stranger. Two intimidating things at the same time, no thanks! I'm not that far yet.

But it's started now, from here it's just a matter of keeping up doing it. Maybe once I get used to it I might start to enjoy it. Or at least it won't feel that awkward anymore. Only time will tell.

I should probably slow down a bit. Not the current things I'm doing, or just getting started. Those I will give my full focus and effort.

But I find myself already planning the next step. For example I have barely started training for the larp coming up in july and now I'm already planning on participating in Tough Viking challenge next year.

And thats not the only thing, there are other new things I would like to start doing. Like playing a quitar, writing a board game and so on. I have lots of ideas.

It's good to aim high, but still I should proceed one step at the time. Focus on the present ones and just file all the rest into the bucket list. That way I don't need to think ”what now?” once I finish my current challenges.

There shouldn't be too many things I'm doing at the same time either. It's hard to focus on all of them and there is also only a limited amount of time in a day.

So full steam ahead focusing on the things I'm already started!

I have been focusing on self development and self improvement. I have written about things I want to achieve. That might sound a bit selfish and I admit making myself better is a big motivation for me. But there is another huge part of it. I want to do it for those close to me, for my family.

I need to make myself better so that I have the strength and knowledge to help them. I need to have my own things in order first before I can start helping others. And I need to know how to do it.

I also want to show an example. If I can do it they can do it too. I want to show that whatever you determine to do is possible, just don't give up. I hope I can inspire them to follow me or determine to do their own thing. But whatever they do I hope to be able to support them and show them the way to success.

I hope they can also be proud of me, of what I have done.